inLUST ; weTRUST

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

``_____.*只能陪你到这里.#

what you thought has all been your wishful thinking,
if i ever wanted to tell a lie on intention, i will never get caught.
but if it's not on intention, i'd simple give myself away from that very moment.
but it seems like, a lie is a lie be it on intention or not.
but then again, things that has been done cannot be undone.

why hold grudges`? isn't it tiring`?
why must everything be known to you`?
can you take them all on your own`?
why do i have to explain myself over and over again to you. when in fact i THOUGHT you believe in me.

she once said she trusted you, but then...she was actually having doubts.
next time, please do not keep saying, words are only words.
the trust comes from the harrt...
words spread around fast, but whether is it true or not, only the beholder know themselves.
there is no need for more than that.

i tried keeping quiet...but she just wanted to know more...
kept asking...i felt so irritated...i just have to jus say something for her.
but she wasn't ready to believe. then why even ask in the first place`?

you leave not wanting to hear more...
do i still have a chance`? NO`!

for everything i do, i have my own reasons that i don't think there is a need to explain to anyone else.
after all, i'm the one doing it.

if i did it on purpose, i'll gladly take what comes out of your mouth, but, it was never on purpose at all`! what you want has never been what i've wanted.

she says she wants me to be happy but there she is getting pissed off with me every now and then, leaving me to have doubts about myself. i let her walk away when all i have to do is say i'm sorry...bt, i simply let my pride get in the way...well, if i'm really at fault then, may retribution befall on me`! if i must be sad to make the world happy, then i'd rather be. if people have to be sad to make me happy, then i'd rather be sad to see them being happy.

i'd rather be hated for who i am, than being love for who i'm not, i just want to be MYSELF. not being manipulated by anyone.

3:59 PM Z

☠theLADY

``_____.*g3rl.#
1st cry : 24 Oct 1988
Status : single and not avail
Job title : PA

EMPTYheart
while you gave her roses, you gave me torns.
While all she did was smile, all i did was mourn.
While she was happy, i was blue.
Cause while you were loving her...i was loving you...='(

你已经有她就不应该再有我
世界的纯真此刻为你有迷惑
我想我应该轻轻放开你的手
我却没有力气这么做